A Re-Post From My BF's Blog

This blog was posted in response to a blackface video that some aging hipsters made. Like, you're too old to be living off your parents, and everyone in my family had two degrees by the time they were your age, and my youngest brother is still younger than you. And he has health insurance and is about to buy a house. Racism is never cool, and anyone who thinks blackface is acceptable is unaware that this is 2008, not 1888. Or never went to college. How embarrassing, the people that made this video went to the same college I went to.

why i parted ways with the scoop.....

after thinking about it long and hard for a few weeks i have decided to no longer be a part of, and no longer associate myself with the scoop ( a dj night i found and started with a couple of guys as a weekly at the fall out lounge).

as some of you may recall i was pretty torn up over a black face incident involving Taresa Nasty and Dan Paul. At first i was trying to spare them the embarrassment of mentioning their names but they dont really care, and i think its because all the people around them share their view.

the balck face thing was never really resolved and i never really got an apology. i mean... to be honest i dont even know if i would believe it because that shit is in their hearts and i have no love for people like that..... well i shall say no toleration. i should love everyone. its hard sometimes. but man it is obvious that those people could give a fuck about me so i have opted to remove myself from contact. its just weird how people can be sometimes. and whats even worse is imagining what they are like when people like me arent around.

its weird how two minorities can be so culturally insensitive, so much so that they have continued to distribute the video even though i have voiced my opinion. As expected, this whole thing got around a bit... a friend of mine was saying how they are talking about it at work and some people were led to believe that the whole thing was blown out of proportion. i hate to make this even more about race, but of course they were white people who couldnt possibly understand...and i am sorry but i am not shocked. i mean people who do that type of shit surround themselves with like minded people. i wish you could have seen the video. actually no i dont. i am glad you havent.

when i confronted the girl about it, who mind you is 30+ yrs of age, she brought up the whole dave chappell in white face thing..... but as few may know, he stopped doing his show because of what it was doing to society and out of fear that white people were enjoying it for the wrong reasons. i will admit. i found the show funny but i could see how it was quit detrimental to black society.

i fucking hat more than anything to make this shit about race. its a topic i try to avoid at all cost but the world keeps throwing it in my face. and sometimes i think it may be a sub conscious mind thing, but i dont live in fear of it, it just happens a lot in texas.

well, long story short. someone who i figured to be a good friend of mine was the one who brought me into this whole mess and he made a big deal about it how horrible it was and when he confronted teresa and dan they didnt think it was a big deal because of just how unaware they are... she broke up with him saying he was being too sensitive or whatever. i figure she did this because she figures herself to be forward thinking or progressive and cant take criticism well or something. who knows what those people think...well out side of their image of black people.

long story short.... a week or two went by and they are back together and all friends like the shit never took place. i have no tolerance for that shit. First, it is extremely hypocritical to bring me into this shit and then back out like shit is all dandy. it proves to me that i am a joke to you and that this shit is not serious to you. well it is to me and the damage has been done and the scroll has been written.

and i am at fault too in this for bitting my tongue for over a month and trying to act like it was all ok and like i havent lost a little respect for everyone associated, but the truth is i have. and i can stoop to that shit.

i cant be apart of anything that involves luke warm people, who more importantly cant identify with me or understand my position in this mess.

this shit has fucked me up bad. watching people who you thought were cool.. fucking belittle something so serious and so deeply impressed here in america and in the mindsets of a lot of people.

i cant be a part of these... and i feel like i have lost a good friend or two over this whole thing but i have to do what i feel and i cant be ran over like this. i didnt deserve this, and it sucks that when i have already felt numerous times like i have so much shit working against me already, that these people i have around me are a part of it too.

man this sucks so bad. man i actually cried when i saw the video and honestly... i have cried since then too and it takes a lot for me to cry but the fact that they cant understand something so powerful kills me...


i cant have any part in this shit. at all. i am done. and i hope they can understand where i am coming from. i hope they read this and realize that i am not doing this out of anger and spite. i am writing this because i am standing up for what i believe in and this is the way it has to be.

shit will never be the same between you and i and sometimes i cant allow myself to believe it is your fault. it is where we live and what people make of this whole thing. we are all influenced but at the same time.... some things are just flat out wrong.

i am no longer a member of the scoop crew because i cant be in anyway associated with those type of thinkers and people in general.


thanks for your time.